It doesn’t matter what your particular area of creativity is, sooner or later you get stuck.
You might have known exactly where you were going, but there comes a moment when you feel you’ve lost your way.
You are suddenly filled with doubt, fear even, and anxiety.
Your brain has a solution – fall back on what you’ve done before. The more experience you have, the more training, the more you are tempted to fall back on the past. I have a rich bag of tricks I can use, but I have to tell myself: Don’t do it.
It’s a moment you want to avoid – and you avoid it as long as you can – but you can’t. You have to go with your immediate instincts, not think about anything else.
When I am looking at the abyss, when I can’t go on and yet can’t not go on, when I get to that point, I just reach out and whatever comes to hand works. Fear and doubt force you to a level of intuition that you need to get to.
And then suddenly you’re flying! That’s heaven.
After I get past the fear, I don’t really remember much about it. But I do in one case – this is a detail from the family portrait below. I was stuck on my own self-portrait until I suddenly went with green – for no particular reason. And equally instinctive was the streak of orange. But it worked and that’s what mattered.