It doesn’t matter what your particular area of creativity is, sooner or later you get stuck.
You might have known exactly where you were going, but there comes a moment when you feel you’ve lost your way.
You are suddenly filled with doubt, fear even, and anxiety.
Your brain has a solution – fall back on what you’ve done before. The more experience you have, the more training, the more you are tempted to fall back on the past. I have a rich bag of tricks I can use, but I have to tell myself: Don’t do it.
Because, the fact is you can rely on your fears. They will push you.
It’s a moment you want to avoid – and you avoid it as long as you can – but you can’t. You have to go with your immediate instincts, not think about anything else.
When I am looking at the abyss, when I can’t go on and yet can’t not go on, when I get to that point, I just reach out and whatever comes to hand works. Fear and doubt force you to a level of intuition that you need to get to.
And then suddenly you’re flying! That’s heaven.
After I get past the fear, I don’t really remember much about it. But I do in one case – this is a detail from the family portrait below. I was stuck on my own self-portrait until I suddenly went with green – for no particular reason. And equally instinctive was the streak of orange. But it worked and that’s what mattered.
one of the (many) great lines in ‘Waiting for Godot” is “I can’t go on….I’ll go on……………………..
What a great comment, Carlotta my dear. Thank you.
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good blog
Thanks Galya–for how you put it–Gives me strength.
Love,’
noa